Tuesday, 30 June 2009
@ 9:27 pm
aim? what do i want? Am i making the right decision to study psychology?
frankly speaking, i don't even know if i should continue studying psychology or if i should change to some other courses.
i got back the
ITABS results and it was atrocious. One of the worst results ever!
what can i say,
ITABS is just not my thing. IT WILL NEVER BE MY THING.
but what the love?! i put in effort, but i don't see the expected results! and mind you, my
expectation for
ITABS ain't sky high.
ALL I WANT IS AN AVERAGE RESULT WHICH WILL NOT PULL MY FREAKING GPA DOWN!!!!!
oh great, if it is really that bad then i will need to repeat the module WHICH i would rather choose to change my course.
& people, DON'T BOTHER ASKING ME ABOUT HOW BADLY I DONE FOR
ITABS. DON'T!
& its not just about
ITABS which made me so demoralised.
i had the community service test today and i can't FUCKING answer most of the questions.
how am i suppose to survive 3 years of community service if i don't even know the basics??
arrrgghhh!! why didn't i choose
TP's psychology??
yeah, regretting it now.. WHEN IT'S ALL TOO LATE!
i just don't understand..
i don't want this...
i don't know what i should do....
I just feel like crying whenever i think of my results. It's not just about me getting into uni or all that.
I just feel that i let my parents and group members down cos i didn't perform up to expectation.
my parents paid so much money for the freaking school fees and the least i could do was to make sure i don't screw up academically.. HELL YEAH I JUST DID IT.
if i put in more effort perhaps things will be different now.
if i put in more effort, my team mates will not be so downhearted.
I know the "if" thing is not realistic but i just need to delude myself for one more time.
no mood, no drive, no nothing.
