Wednesday, 8 December 2010
Just when I am in the mood @ 12:59 am
Tumblr freaking screwed me up so badly. Dammit and just when I want to note things down.
Whatever happened to the old me? You know, the one is there but not highly noticeable, the one who is quiet most of the time, the one who actually LISTENS to others when they have problems, the one who cares.. Sadly, I've changed, not always for the better apparently. I do hate myself right now, I am pretty fucked up compared to before. I want to go back, go back to the point where I truly care for people, spending time listening to their problems and feeling them.
Now? Pshh, I do listen, I do. But it's different, I don't feel the attachment, I don't care as much. & I realized, I've been too busy being caught up with my own problems to truly care for others.
Fuck, I cry at least once a month and I blame it on PMS. Then again, I have PMS during my secondary school years too, I don't see myself crying so often. I guess that's just me cracking down due to the amount of stress I give to myself. Worst part of this all is I can't even find a place for me to cry properly, to sob like a child and cry my heart out. I'm like always crying on the bus ride home, or when I am walking home but never loud sobs, just tearing.
I need one day, alone. No disturbance from anyone, no smses, no phonecalls, no nothing. I just want one freaking day to gather all my thoughts together and pull myself up, find back some of the old me.
& I freaking hate mobile phones. It makes you too contactable till you are committed to reply others when they text you, you have to be readily available no matter when and you are bound to your mobile phone like it's your lifeline. That's the reason why I throw my phone into one corner when I'm at home. I just want some time alone.
Saturday, 19 December 2009
200th @ 12:57 am
Tired of waiting so this is my 200th post!
I'll not be blogging here anymore =D
My new blog link will be....
haven't thought of it yet so I'll just update on facebook when i create a new blog!
BYE BYE!
199th @ 12:55 am
One freaking week passed and i haven't done anything much regarding school work.
Oh well at least our group met up at wed and we sorta finished the stuff we need to do for BEHORG.
I've been thinking if I should really write my lifespan essay on Mozart. Seriously, it's just a random thought and I don't know why but my mind is just set on writing about Mozart. I don't even learn any musical instrument! and to tell the truth, I know nothing about him.
Well at least I learnt that his full name is Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart. Such cool name huh..
I just hope that I can complete most of my assignments during this hols. I need to revise too.. =(( What kinda holiday is this? Ok, I slacked for umm say 2 days? That's it. Enough rest and it's time to CHIONG!
Thursday, 17 December 2009
198th. @ 1:44 am
This is such a freaking joke.. Miley Cyrus is so goddamn popular till her popularity is on par with Michael Jackson. Are you kidding me??
The Hannah Montana dudette?? Either this world has loads of insane kids or they are using subliminal voices to affect these kiddos subconscious mind. I mean just look at her!!! She got an okay voice, not those angelic ones nor does she has power house voice like Celine Dion. Her look is average for an idol, not hot like Megan Fox (not that i think Megan Fox is hot) nor is she pretty like Angelina Jolie.
All I see is a girl trying hard to look hot?
Listened to her songs, 7 things is just too child-like kind, guess that appeals to the kids out there. Her new songs party in USA doesn't make any sense to me. Catchy and that's it. Just freaking take a look at her youtube videos. The views are 100 million plus.. and apparently some dudes commented that she is hot... Megan Fox will be considered as super nova in this case.
Comparing her to MJ??!! The MJ that danced Moon walk? The MJ that has soooooo many popular songs? That MJ which was previously known as King of Pop?
Miley Cyrus obviously is the MJ to the youngsters. I can already picture the sea of people going ga-ga over Hannah Montana/ Miley.
This world is going hay-wire.
P.S. I am not jealous of Miley in case some losers are thinking that I am. I just find it utterly absurd to compare MJ with Miley... But apparently Miley is equivalent to MJ in this 21st century where everything happens for no reason.
198th. @ 1:16 am
Thursday, 10 December 2009
My 197th post @ 6:43 pm
Wow, look at my archives! My blog has been established for 2 years plus already! guess I'll be changing my link when i reach my 200th post.
I'm gonna blog somewhere else other than blogger.
Behorg tutorial was extremely hilarious today! with Wani exclaiming stupid comments and our very dear lecturer Tan Yew Kong trying to balance the helium stick on his head..
Today's tutorial first activity was one team negotiating with another team for ugli oranges. yes, and apparently both the team requires the oranges so its up to us to come up with an agreement on who should take the oranges.
One of the team requires the orange juice for medicine and since there was limited oranges, Wani exclaimed that we can substitute the ugli oranges with mandarin oranges. LOL
I think she is too hyper till she can't think properly today.
I'm still contemplating if i should join spca as a volunteer.. RAWR! it's all about time management. Seriously..
long time no see @ 12:00 am
it's been ages since i last blogged. Been busy trying to finish my assignments and group work these days. RAWR! all thanks to all the stress piling up, my usage of profanities increased tremendously.
Nowadays, it ain't that much of a surprise if i say F**k up to a 100 times in a day, exaggerating? SADLY, it's the truth.
No harm saying a few vulgarities in a day right? I mean it sorta spice up your mundane life..
Well, that gotta depends on where you are saying it and your listeners.
Sad for Wani, after knowing there is no lifespan tutorial today, she said the F- word immediately and guess what? She said it right in front of Ms Helen. LOL!
I was also given dagger stares by uncle Dennis when i accidentally exclaimed the F word in front of him.
Yeah well, i'm trying to curb my usage already..
Stats mock test tomorrow and i am not prepared for it yet. At least i finished the questions she gave in week 7A. Maths, my Achilles' heel, how am i gonna overcome it?? Perhaps plain mugging is the answer.
I'm gonna spend my hols catching up with my studies, friends and shopping. Erm like real shopping where u get to see the real clothes, walk on the street instead of facing the computer and trying to guestimate if the piece of clothing suits you.
I miss all my friends! Hoping to see ya guys soon!!!
